Alternate Viewpoint

On 2nd thought, half the time I don't even know what the fuck I think.

The previous post sounds like another cop out. I can't make changes because I believe in death and Buddhism said if I believe in death I am doomed to a life of sense seeking. Fuck that. There's no reason not to make changes now that will benefit me for the rest of my ~40 years of life. Just because death is the end doesn't mean I have to be a slave to addiction.

You know, addiction isn't even my only problem. It's a close tie with being extremely lazy. So lazy I can barely keep up with day to day tasks like paying the bills and taking care of my cat.

Sometimes I think these traits are problems which cause me distress. However... I'm not so sure today. Can't I drink a cup of coffee full well acknowledging that it is unhealthy for me yet enjoy it anyway? Does this force me to be incongruent with my ideal self?

Maybe it's time to adjust the ideal self instead of trying to adjust self to match the ideal. But then.... isn't that just another cop out? Just another easy way out of not having to change or improve.

I have no facking idea.